A few drinks later
And a splitting headache forms. It’s only on occasion that I whip out a beer to enjoy, the absence of alcohol in my system has given me the feather weight title as far as drinking goes, but: hey many considerably believe that it’s a good thing.
A family outing beckons for me. Until then Tumblr heads: how are you?
A few asks in my inbox to keep my mind sane during this lengthy drive: yeah?
As humans we learn a great deal from one another, from the way we conduct ourselves, what we wear, how we do a number of things. and it comes to no surprise suicide is one of those *things* we learn from one another
"… this tells us is that we got the idea of dying by suicide from someone else. We didn’t think of this solution all by ourselves. Suicide is hardly a new idea and people have been doing it for as long as there have been people. And so, if we somehow have got hold of the idea of solving our problems by suicide, then we must have got it from someone — a friend, a family member, a famous person. Someone, somewhere has shown us that suicide is something we too can do. And when someone else has shown us the way, is it easier for us to take the same route? The research on this is very clear: When a famous person like Marilyn Monroe kills herself, the suicide rate rises. It is as if the people who had been thinking their problems were insoluble saw, by Marilyn’s example, that self-destruction was a real possibility. Maybe they said, "If it was good enough for Marilyn, it is good enough for me."
With the recent HUGElost of Robin Williams people will surely mourn however, for some it may make their depression worst. if this is YOUR case let “us” help “you” out
- Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
- Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
- LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
- Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
- Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
- Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
- Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
- Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
- Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
- Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-439425
been MIA for a hot minute
BHCartel is only local, SO local that it travels alongside with me.
I’m getting this car soon and on grind in order to achieve it.
Just got out of Colorado: the only question now is: where to next?
Fucking dipshits in the family I am unable to get my car this coming October. Excuse the language, but this is how I feel as of late.
I am utterly irritated, betrayed, and ultimately disappointed. I swear to god, I swear to god I swear to god. It was going undeniably great until I decided to “reconnect” with family. Worst fucking decision I’ve made thus far. Now it is four in the fucking morning and I can’t attain an ounce of sleep, because of how ridiculous this sounds!
fuck fuck fuck!
I don’t understand.
I work day in, day out, push myself beyond my limits. Exceed in every aspect I can.
It’s not that: it isn’t enough, that bugs me (nothing is ever enough) but the fact that my family doesn’t acknowledge it, doesn’t acknowledge the hours I put in, doesn’t acknowledge the blood, sweat, tears.
Guess the time AWAY was the better years of my life: can’t say I didn’t try though. Reconnecting might be a tad bit harder than I thought.
A feeling of disconnection only means you were once affixed with someone and in some cases something.
The type of bond an individual carries with them are familiar, but you know what they say about time: time changes people, values, morales, perception, and everything in between. Rendering the bond to a whole different state.
Think about it like this: your best friend, you guys meet up and it’s like nothing has every changed between you two. Hate to say it but it’s only because you guys are holding onto PAST bonds. It’s when you two go onto NEW adventures, NEW experiences, and NEW hardships that will determine your NEW relationship.
I’m feeling so disconnected with my family right now. But hey: I’ve tried to rebuild my image to THEIR liking, only to find out; their semblance of me is still remains as “little BoBa”
What I would give.
For alot of money right now.
I’m about my money nowadays: becoming something I’d wish to veer away from.
However at the same time: my visit to California only showed me how $ ran a persons thoughts, actions, and determining choices.
As well as how expensive California really is Haha. Good weed though (or so I’ve heard.)